Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Journal Entry: He Is Always Faithful

This morning I got an email notification from Penzu (an online journal website) notifying me that I haven't wrote an entry in awhile.

Dear Kimberly,
On August 17 2012 at 04:21 am you wrote an entry in your Penzu journal.
Want to read the rest of this entry? Follow this link:

- Penzu Team

 I acutally switched from writing an online journal to actually writing in a journal I bought at a bookstore.

 Reading this entry made me realize just how important it is to record our thoughts as often as we can.

 Looking back on this trial I was going to seemed so difficult at the time and now looking back on my thoughts makes me so grateful for that trial because it made me grow, made me even stronger and I was able to see the hand of the Lord so much during this time.

I would like to share my journal entry with you.....


I work at Clark Hill which is a law firm here in Scottsdale, Arizona.

I have been working there for a little over a year now. I love it! Seriously the BEST job ever. About 4 months back, I was given the opportunity to get promoted to a "billing specialist" position. They were looking for someone who has a least 5 years experience as a billing specialist in a law firm setting. I had no experience whatsoever. None. I was shocked when they considered me for the position as they needed someone with a college degree and experience. Nonetheless I thought it over and prayed about it.  I was a little hesitant because the position I was currently in I LOVED and thought what happens if I leave this position and don't like the billing position? I just decided to take the chance and take the leap and go for it. What did I have to lose? was a big pay increase so that was very tempting of course. Tabitha, a co-worker and friend took over my old position and would be leaving at the end of September to have her baby boy. So things were set in place.

The next day I went in and told my boss I wanted to pursue the position. After committing to the job, I had a lot of mixed feelings. I kept thinking to myself "I hope I made the right decision"

Days passed and I was going into work every day feeling stressed, overwhelmed and very anxious. There were days I would come home crying and kneel by my bedside pouring my heart out to my Heavenly Father asking for his guidance, love and wondering if I made the right decision.

One day my boss informed me that they wanted me to fly back to Detroit for round two of training. My heart sunk and I was tongue-tied. I didn't know what to say at the moment so I told myself to go home think and pray about it. I knew I needed to make a decision and fast especially if they were going to make arrangements to fly me back out there. I needed to let my boss know exactly how I felt before things got worse.

This morning I woke up and asked Heavenly Father to help guide me throughout my day today and to help me to make the right decision. Earlier in the morning I had to get an approval from my boss on some markdowns for a bill. I  had to go into his office anyways so I figured I would just open up and be honest with him about how I felt. I was so nervous and there was a huge pit in my stomach. How do you deal with going into something that you might enjoy and then hate it? It was very hard but I knew I needed to just take action and do what I felt was right for me.

Our meeting went better than I could have ever expected. God was right by my side the entire time. I could feel Him. We had a great conversation and he expressed to me that my old position is always mine until he fills it with someone full time. He told me that he just wanted me to be happy and find a position that I enjoy doing and if that was my old position than he would move me back once Tabitha leaves. He was so understanding and so caring. He told me he would start making plans to get me moved back and was really happy that I came to him with honesty. How perfect did all of this work out?!
Leaving the meeting, my heart was smiling and I felt God's love and His goodness.

Sometimes God will put us in situations to bless someone else. In this case He used me working in this position to bless Tabitha with extra income before the baby came and He used it to also bless us with extra income to pay off some bills we had (which we had also been praying about asking God to help us find ways to pay down our debt to become debt free before buying our first home and starting a family)

God is so good and He is so faithful with every request that we send up His way. Sometimes its so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know with all my heart and soul that if you press forward with all of your faith in Him, He will bring it to pass and pour blessings down upon you.

Do you write in a journal?
If so, why do you think recording your thoughts is important?

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At October 17, 2012 at 11:28 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Love this. I am a boot of a journal Junky. I love to record thing. I think that when you reread an entry God will point out see what you were going through there can you see how I used that to bless you? I love those a-ha moments.

At October 17, 2012 at 12:09 PM , Blogger 2busy said...

I wish I journal-ed more! My blog has actually become my journal...for ALL to see.


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