Trying To..

Yes, the time has arrived. I figured I would just put it out there and let you guys know.

 We have been trying to get pregnant for just a couple of months now.

My greatest desire is to become a mother and have the privelage

to nurture and raise one of Heavenly Father's precious children.

It has been exciting these past few months,  knowing that hopefully any day

now I will be able to read a test that shows up "Pregnant"

I picture and imagine that moment in my head. My heart longs for this day.

Sitting there with my heart beating a gazillion miles a minute hoping

and praying that the test will come out positive.

Reading it, crying and praising God for His goodness and His promises.

The overwhelming excitement and joy of telling my

Husband and eventually family and friends.

This is what I hope for. I hope that it will happen soon.

Even though it's an exciting time right now, it has also

been stressful and disappointing too. Every month that approaches

I get a test and think "okay this might be it!"

Then its negative....

Month after month, after month....

I get disappointed. I get sad.

Then I have to wait another month.

But throughout all of this its' teaching me alot

patience and to rely soley on the Lord and His plan for my life.

I have come to realize that I can only do so much and that

ultimately it is not in my hands. It's in the Lords hands and His perfect timing.

I believe that sometimes God doesn't give you what you want when you want it,

not beacuse you don't deserve it, but because you deserve so much more and He

has something really really big in store.

So I am going to be hopeful, prayerful

and wait on the Lord to see just what He has in store!

Are you trying to get pregnant?

I would love to hear some of your thoughts and stories too!